Guess-who

time is relative...

2008-09-06T13:28:00.001+08:00

time is relative... having been thru 1 yr and 3 mths seems like an eternity to me... finally a long awaited milestone to the long awaited day...

5 more mths till the day i can say ORD lo!

2008-08-24T19:42:00.001+08:00

All the blood, sweat and tears

All for a moment of glory...

Eternal glory under the flame of hope and dreams...

The Olympic dream is finally over.

maturity...

2008-06-22T19:55:00.002+08:00

Do people mature after going into the army?

Is it a place where people turn from boys to men?

Hmmmz... *ponders*

ignorance...

2008-05-29T00:49:00.004+08:00

learned ignorance

recognize that fact that the more you know the more you will know what you don't know and what will not be known ever...

ignorance cannot be severed from knowledge totally...

a moment of inspiration...

a moment of enlightenment...

a moment of truth...

what arrogance to quest for true knowledge where one detests ignorance...

some secrets are best left alone...

wake up

2008-03-23T17:37:00.002+08:00

After a long slumber since feb

Its good to wake up and stretch around

and then...

go back to sleep

life...

2008-02-28T22:53:00.001+08:00

life is crap lahz...

late...

2008-01-06T12:07:00.000+08:00

Last year's review came abit late. Becoz i procrastinated too much. Have to rest more. Haha.

Last year 2007... Should I say its an eventful year or should I say its an uneventful year full of army. Army life took a very large part of last year and shall take up all the time of this year. Major events include working experience, A level results and of coz army. The start of the year was quite slack which includes sleeping at home most of the time, lounging in front of the tv, eating good food, going out with friends etc. Started working around feb. I would say it is enriching. Travelling to tampines every morning and pick up the orders and the goods. Met many different kinds of people and realising that service sector is really not the job for me. But it was a valuable experience.

Recieved my A level results at around march. Academic wise, it wasnt something to be proud of. Of course, I would have worked harder for my exams if I had that chance again. But this marks the end of schooling until I finished my stint in the army. Applied for university and with it comes the dilemma of going to a course I like or a course that can make more money.

Got my enlistment letter in jan. Enlistment date: 13th april 2007, Friday. I still remember my 1st time stepping into BMTC school 1 on that rainy friday after having heard many things about the army from my other friends. Feeling somewhat apprehensive. Met new frens like my buddy shengli, junjie, jeremy, zhirong. These people occupied a large part of my life in Jaguar coy plt 2 sect 3. Passed through gruelling route marches, physical punishments, ippt and soc tests. And of course the 6 day field camp. Experienced the 1st outfield in my life. Passed out as a trained soldier in june. Transited from civillian to NSF.

June 25th 2007. Posted to AETC/AEC 'Bravo' as an armoured pioneer. Still remembered that old 4 storey building that gave me a shock compared to the bunks in BMTC. Met new friends like my section mates lao jiao, yang yang, zhiming, rom, vinc, nick. sect 2: da gan, peng peng, darren, mushroom, kai kai. sect 3: jude, jasper, qida, zheng jie, issac. OOCs: sivabalan. Operators: damien, harry, kelvin. Went through thick and thin with them. Outfields and exercises. Section and platoon prof tests. KL trip with yang, da gan, kai kai, jasper. Times of fun and laughter, the xiong ness of exercises, the physical training and the many things big and small we do together. Fate brought all of us together from the many corners of singapore.

Not the forget my jc frens. We still have outings to catch up with one another. Some people still never change. Others I may have drifted apart from them. Talked about the army, about uni life or just crapped. Still have a few meetings with Zhiting and Stacey.

Its the 7th year since fate brought us together. These people are the few constants in my life. Even though 3 of us are in the army, 1 one the police and one in poly, we still managed to meet up once in a while. We still share our hopes and dreams about the future. They are the ones who leave many footprints in my heart.

The healing process that begins in 2006 has nearly reached the end. After enlistment with so many other things occupying my mind, all the rest of the things that seem so important last time has been relegated to the back of my mind. After seeing you again, I rediscovered the reason why you are worth the trouble.

This year is going to be quite a xiong year with so many exercises and possibly an overseas trip. Year 2007 AD has gone into the history books and I really look forward to the end of 2008 where i can once again look forward to ORD.

Counting down: 1 Year and 1 month to ORD. Date: 12th February 2009

shit....

2007-12-16T14:49:00.000+08:00

I seemed to have lost my use of language....

when i try to open my mouth...

only empty words comes out...

low key

2007-11-09T22:15:00.000+08:00

this is called low key...

ippt
atp
route march
moving of bunk
moving of stores
runs

it should be called everything else except outfield...

tgf

2007-10-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

After a premium mindfuck this morning...

I feel enlightened ie see broken red dust(translate urself)

Really tgf...

Totally Gone Fucked...

waah lao eh...

2007-09-29T09:34:00.000+08:00

I think I shld modify my vow abit...

Thou shalt not speak of thee army from now... unnecessarily...

Now i can type something... wahaha....

Finally passed out of my course after like 3mths or so. Finally i got my engineer formation badge. The exercise was tough but it was worth it. Now i get to enjoy the privileges of a pioneer and we are moving to a new bunk soon. Finally.

And i signed 5+1 extras... seems like extras dont come singly.

hmmmmz,...

2007-09-09T13:01:00.000+08:00

after looking through my blog entries in the past, i realised that i have written many meaningful and colourful entries. It seems obvious to me that being in the army has degraded my language skills and ever since i was enlisted all my entries are about the army and this is not a good sign. So now i shall make a vow.

Thou shalt not speak of thee army from now.

outfield...

2007-09-06T15:23:00.000+08:00

Once you went through outfield, you will appreciate the luxuries of civilization. Being able to wash up, brush teeth, change clothes, sleep on a decent bed, hot and cooked food etc. Even sleeping is a luxury. People dun sleep much outfield. At most 4hrs or usually less than that. I forsee that i would not even have time to sleep during subsequent outfields. By the way, bmt field camps are crap. We have more than 7hrs of sleep and the activities during the day are not even vaguely counted as xiong compared to this.

nostalgic...

2007-08-25T14:40:00.000+08:00

watching the years go past...

people in my life come and go...

i suddenly feel a sense of nostalgia...

suddenly all the memories flood back to me...

as if i am suddenly transported into a time machine...

diaoz...

2007-07-27T18:00:00.000+08:00

Seriously engineering is damn fun...

you have a 7km run to be completed in 35min on tuesday den soc practice on wednesday and a day and night navi-ex in a sector crawling with infantry and tanks on thursday...

well done...

new unit...

2007-07-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

Long time since i wrote something. Everytime book out so tired lahz. All the physical training everyday and sleeping late waking up early means u have to catch up on sleep during the weekends. The new unit was quite ok lahz. Not xiong until the extent of the cheong sua infantry and guards but not slack until the extent of slacking and sleeping in the bunk everyday like signals. Lots of pt, chinup regime, runs and of course the ever present soc. Actually i dont mind all these if there is a nice and comfortable bunk to sleep in. But no. The fucked up 1 inch matresses and 31 people sleeping in one bunk is all i have. Haiz. Have to endure for the next 3 or 4 mths until we can move to the new building.

my section mates are ok if a few more interesting people with a more active lifestyle. Haha. I really look forward to 5th october when i finally pass out as a full fledged armored pioneer. Hopefully with a promotion too. Haha. Look forward to more interesting ce topics like mines, explosives and con wires. But its not all fun and games after becoming operational. Heard that our sister company AEC Alpha built a 10 con and then blew it up for operations.

posted...

2007-06-22T15:14:00.000+08:00

Posted to AETC ie Armoured Engineer Training Centre at Sungei Gedong Camp. At least its not infantry or guards. Wahaha.

dun call me a chao recruit...

2007-06-13T21:48:00.000+08:00

dun call me a chao recruit... call me a chao private...

hahaha... POP lo... time in bmt was ok lahz. When I see the paper tt I got into Juguar tt time I was thinking siao liao lahz... siong company lehz... but den in the end was still ok lahz. Not as bad as I thought. Route marches was shag. During the 8k i thought i was going to die on the way but obviously i didnt. During the 24k the temptation to fall out was damn strong but i didnt. one step by one step... dun think so much... juz walk. Field camp shld be quite fun IF it did not rain. Being wet cold and smelly takes the fun out of it. SOC was totally rubbish. Swing trainer and low rope are the major obstacles. Wat standard obstacles. rename them lahz.

I juz finished the 1st phrase in my NS life. where will i go next.

everytime...

2007-05-06T17:03:00.000+08:00

Everytime u get on the fast craft at SFT...

and u see the lights of Singapore receding into the distance...

u feel an inexplicable sense of loneliness...

scold vugalrities...

2007-04-28T10:31:00.000+08:00

One late night...

shoot whole day...

feeling shagged...

and sian...

completely wet and muddy...

lousy zeroing...

IA no feeding for every round i shoot...

tio no targets...

the 1st time in my life i feel like i want to cry...

I feel like scolding vugalrities but I think I scolded abit too much last night. Dun scold too much here.

Firers unload check clear.

haiz...

2007-04-12T19:26:00.000+08:00

MY PRETTY PINK IC WITH MY HANDSOME FACE WILL BE GONE IN 14HOURS!!!!!

HOW AH??!!!!

TEKONG AND THE MOSQUITOES ARE WAITING FOR ME!!!!

woohoo...

2007-04-06T11:19:00.000+08:00

Woohoo... 1 freaking more week to a nice chalet at tekong!

Why am i so freaking happy?

Basket. Haven't go army already crazy...

xing fu...

2007-04-04T18:33:00.000+08:00

幸福是别人给予的...

还是自己争取的？

muahaha...

2007-03-29T18:27:00.000+08:00

It's going to be

April Fool's Day!

Wahahaha *evil laugh*

horhor...

2007-03-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

Some people think too little...

Some people think too much...

How do you balance thinking too little and thinking too much?

One more month to enlistment. Some people pass out liao I also havent enlist. I have been rotting at home for quite some time except the time when i was working.
Tekong is waiting for me...

Now I shall spend my days watching The Vineyard Man. Yoon Eun Hye（尹恩惠）is cute lahz.

ermz... okz...

2007-03-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

my maths failed me again. Its is disgusting that it has done it again. During the o lvls, my A maths didnt get an A1 when i expected it to. Now its brother C maths has come to haunt me again. As if its not scary enough. Thats not the only thing to fail me. My GP... haiz... why has it fail me at this critical time giving me a bullshitty C5. Bullshit. Even Wenlong wins me. Shit.

At least the rest are within my expectations. Luckily I am prepared for the worst case scenario and this is not the worst.

maybe...

2007-02-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

有人说当不成恋人可以做朋友，你相信吗？
曾经对她说我喜欢你，但是被拒绝了，还真的可以做朋友吗？

有人说时间可以淡化一切，你相信吗？
当一段天长地久的爱情破灭时，需要用多久的时间才能忘记？

记忆到底是件好事还是坏事？

coffee...

2007-02-13T21:16:00.000+08:00

没有你的世界就像一杯kopi-o
黑黑的黯淡无光...

没有爱情的世界就像一杯kopi-o
苦苦的涩涩的，加了糖还是这样...

但是你的出现让一杯普普通通的kopi-o
变成了一杯浓浓甜甜的鸳鸯奶茶...

你给我的爱就像奶茶
把一杯黑黑苦苦涩涩的kopi-o
变成了一杯香香迷人的鸳鸯奶茶...

=============================

haha... not very good. Thought of it when I was on my long bus journey home on 506. doesn't sound too right but nevertheless it at least make sure my chinese doesn't turn rusty. Think about something on 失意 tml.

irritated...

2007-02-08T20:30:00.000+08:00

I am seriously irritated. Seems like I havent learnt the subtleties of dealing with customers. I think that service industry is the worst job to find yourself in. And I seriously hate that long long journey home. Everytime I go home late, I would be on the verge of quitting. Some people are just not considerate. Heck if you go home late, I just want my thing to work. Goddamn. Especially if I have already been fiddling with it for an hour and its not working, and you still want to make me wait for you to call and confirm. Disgusting. Next week is going to be even more busy. No going home early for me and I still have not decide between taking mrt and bus. One is faster and the other cheaper. I wouldnt have even step out of my house if I had funding from my parents.

Irritated. I think I need some chocs.

shit...

2007-01-31T14:08:00.000+08:00

looks like my 以毒攻毒 failed.

Shit.

Now have a bad cough liaoz.

Next week still need to work.

wat the...

2007-01-13T21:25:00.000+08:00

People enlist.
People work.
People study.

What am I doing at home?
Slacking.

What a life.

year in review...

2006-12-30T16:15:00.000+08:00

I think its about time for me to review this soon-to-be-going-into-history-books year 2006. Basically, some ups and downs but seems that there are more downs than ups. Academically, its a tough year, spending most of the time preparing for the end of year A levels. Stress levels seem to increase to a unprecedented level. Significant events like mid year common test, prelims, mock papers all seem to be reminding me to study. Common test especially serves as a reminder not to procrastinate. I hope that the lousy results I got for the common test and the prelims would pay off with good results from the A levels. But whatever the case, the results would only appear next year so thats next year business.

The bond with my friends in school also strengthen as we struggled on, stayed in school study and played like mad. People like Zhengxian Yaojun and Junlong which we spend the two years maybe one and 3/4 years together. We crapped, lamed, bullshitted, argued, played. Others like pwmates Meihong Chianwen and Koksin which we have formed friendships. Basketball games after school. People who accompany me home like Yeeloong which we can talk about a myriad of subjects. People who accompany me when I am down like Zhiyao who is quite rubbishy sometimes. People whom i got to know better this year like Bengkian Mingyang Weiyuan Wenlong just to name a few. People special in their own way like Jinlin Sophie Liting Xiaojun etc. The morning gang Zhiting Stacey Hansheng which burnt off the going-school blues.

Our 6th year of our friendship and still going strong. We may have less outings due to our busy schedules and A levels and would have less next year when we go into the army and that duck goes into the uni but we still take time off the celebrate birthdays maybe go out once in a while for lunches and dinners. We still laughed and played very much similar to what we did last time even as we are leaving to pursue our interests.

Grown up more this year as fate intervenes when I thought I was not ready for a relationship. Things that should be said are said, those that should be done within my means are done, but when it doesn't gets the results one wants then it should be let go. I must learn to accept the fact that has been repeated to me many times. Another long process of healing begins as I wait for fate to intervene again. I never regretted knowing you nor telling you that and thank you for letting me know your clear answer and for everything.

Rounding up this year, it maybe a year of liberation. Liberation from uniform, freedom from the vicious clutches of GCE exams which we have spent our youth striving for it. I would say its a complex year having to dealt with issues that I do not wish to face again. Academical or not. I shall continue to pursue my dreams whatever they may be and look forward to a nice 2 year chalet in tekong next year.

Let this entry mark the end of this year, quite significant and look for a fresh start next year.

往前看好过往后看...
该做得都作了，现在只好听天由命...

ban...

2006-12-21T15:31:00.000+08:00

Ban Dihydrogen Monoxide!

Dihydrogen monoxide is colorless, odorless, tasteless, and kills uncounted thousands of people every year. Most of these deaths are caused by accidental inhalation of DHMO, but the dangers of dihydrogen monoxide do not end there. Prolonged exposure to its solid form causes severe tissue damage. Symptoms of DHMO ingestion can include excessive sweating and urination, and possibly a bloated feeling, nausea, vomiting and body electrolyte imbalance. For those who have become dependent, DHMO withdrawal means certain death.

Dihydrogen monoxide:

is also known as hydroxyl acid, and is the major component of acid rain.
contributes to the "greenhouse effect."
may cause severe burns.
contributes to the erosion of our natural landscape.
accelerates corrosion and rusting of many metals.
may cause electrical failures and decreased effectiveness of automobile brakes.
has been found in excised tumors of terminal cancer patients.

Quantities of dihydrogen monoxide have been found in almost every stream, lake, and reservoir in America today. But the pollution is global, and the contaminant has even been found in Antarctic ice. DHMO has caused millions of dollars of property damage in the midwest, and recently California.

Despite the danger, dihydrogen monoxide is often used:

as an industrial solvent and coolant.
in nuclear power plants.
in the production of styrofoam.
as a fire retardant.
in many forms of cruel animal research.
in the distribution of pesticides. Even after washing, produce remains contaminated by this chemical.
as an additive in certain "junk-foods" and other food products.

Companies dump waste DHMO into rivers and the ocean, and nothing can be done to stop them because this practice is still legal. The impact on wildlife is extreme, and we cannot afford to ignore it any longer!

curious...

2006-12-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

haiz... why are you so curious?

You know curiosity kills the cat.

Everytime you want to read den in the end your heart cracks and you still want to read.

Torment yourself for no purpose. Only for curiosity's sake.

Ask you don't read still want to read.

Why you so stupid one. Dumb ass.

hmmmz...

2006-12-15T20:03:00.000+08:00

after a particular boring week, i managed to find ~~myself a job~~ something to do. Damn boring at home lehz. What can i do at home. Sleep? I already sleeping 10 hours a day. Online? I already online most of the day. Watch tv? Discovery. NatGeo. MTV. All watched. But sometimes its just not what i feel like watching. Read? I exhausted the books around the house. Gaming? Maybe i should go download pko. Laze around? I am already stoning in an empty house. Luckily my sis coming home today. Haha. Finally got someone to share my boredom.

I thought that by not thinking about it, I will forget. But no. Reality doesn't work that way.

bored...

2006-12-02T18:29:00.000+08:00

one pathetic soul left at home.

Depressed even after exams.

This is rubbish.

Wizard's Second Rule

2006-11-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

In Terry Goodkind's Sword of Truth series, the Wizard's Second Rule states that "The greatest harm can result from the best intentions."

Have you ever wondered what would you do if you have the power to change what you regretted in the past? I just realised that isn't very wise. Fate works in a myriad of ways. If you have managed to change what you regretted. For example, if you had studied harder during the PSLE maybe you would have gone to a better school and know different friends from what you now know. Maybe you would even turn out to be a different person under influence from different people.

It seems contradictory that the best intentions can give rise to the greatest harm. One can never know what results from your actions. Doing what you think is right can cause more harm than good. For example you had a friend who is paralysed from an accident since young and you had the power to undo this unfortunate event. You may think that your friend would thank you for that but have you wondered that this single act of kindness could change the entire destiny of the person. Being in a wheelchair is different from a healthy person. Perceptions change and healthy people could do much more than one who is paralysed. Your friend could turn out to be a very different person. Even the surrounding people can be affected in a vast number of different ways. The world you know can be totally different and strange to you.

Everyone is now on the crossroads of life every moment every second. Every decision you make may have a profound impact on your future. Change the variables and everything can change for the better or the worse. Every second that pass means a second is lost and the decision made becomes a fact. Open yourself to the possibility that despite your best intentions things do not turn out to be the way you expect.

Of course, we can never have the power to change the past. Only the future can be moulded by us. If one fine day, someone tells us that he has built a time machine that can go back in time. Be very afraid as one day we may wake up with only memories of the world we used to know. Regrets is a part and parcel of our lives but we often think about what could we have done instead of looking into the future that maybe an unintended consequence of our mistake would bring us hope.

"Life is the future, not the past."

- Wizard's Seventh Rule

PRIVATE

2006-11-18T12:01:00.000+08:00

Internet is supposedly a public space. Anything posted by me will be read by everyone unless marked 'Private'.

Ok. Now i mark this entry

PRIVATE

NO ONE SHOULD READ THIS. IF YOU READ THIS, YOU INVADED MY PRIVACY.

CLICK THE X ON THE TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER OF THE SCREEN NOW! YES RIGHT NOW!

PRIVATE
PRIVATE

no title...

2006-11-15T19:03:00.000+08:00

是我太执着吗？
还是她不值得让我放弃

insomnia...

2006-10-27T12:10:00.000+08:00

finally hav some excitement in my very bored life. The enlistment letter has finally appeared in the letter box. Thought that will kanna scdf but den dont have. Chey. Tekong camp 1 in april. Looks like dont find job also cannot le. If not rot at home damn sian.

Insomnia. Rarely had it. Watever the cause. I still didnt fall asleep until dawn breaks.

The sky rumbled and rumbled and rumble somemore. When is it going to start raining. Damn.

bored...

2006-10-23T11:27:00.000+08:00

I am bored out of my mind. Having to do maths and chem papers everyday one after another is damn boring. I think I should not be slacking here but i am seriously bored.

BORED!

Cant an enlistment letter come and give me some excitement like "wahseh... i enlisting on xx-xx-xx. Why so fast!?" At least something to break the monotony of studying. I think I must write more. ! more week to GP. All these for my own future. Haiz. My future better be promising if not I would have studied all these crap for nothing.

overkill....

2006-10-15T11:50:00.000+08:00

I seriously think that I am in self denial. Stop that and go back to chemistry.

chua tio...

2006-09-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

not enough practice, not careful enough, not well prepared enough cause this tragedy.

moping and regret would not change anything. Must well spend time rectifying the mistakes.

Make sure this disappointment won't happen again.

ostrich...

2006-09-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

I think I have a rather ostrich view of the upcoming prelim results. You know that ostrich that will stuck his head in the sand when enemy approaches. (that's a myth by the way）My results wont be anything till I see them. I can believe my results to be all As which is delusional but I won't know until I get them back. So I can believe all I want. It does not exist until I see it. What a view to take.

A poet once wrote about an encounter between a skeptic and God, pondering if a tree exist if there is no one to observe that it does exist.

There was once a man who said, "God
Must think it exceedingly odd
If he finds that this tree
Continues to be
When there's no one about in the Quad

However someone replied

Dear sir, Your astonishment's odd
I am always about in the Quad
And that's why the tree
Will continue to be,
Since observed by Yours faithfully --- God

Haha. I think my results exist after all observed by teachers who marked my paper and maybe God. Seriously I think I am too tired and that's why all the mad rambling.

" Madness is the ability to make fine distinctions on different kinds of nonsense." - Albert Einstein

mundane

2006-09-21T10:38:00.000+08:00

I think I lead very mundane lives. Everyone's lives like so interesting then only my life is like that. Hmmmz. Maybe people can find interest in everyday activities which I only pass them by. Maybe people can remember their what interesting things they do which I would not remember. Apparently I have short term memory. Maybe people can find interesting things to do when they are bored which I can't except sleeping or stoning which is not exactly very interesting.

How to make my life more interesting. I shall go sleep.

1 week...

2006-09-16T11:56:00.000+08:00

1 week of exams passed. 3 more days to go. It seems to me a long long week. And I dont look forward to the end of it because it means the results are coming back. When the results are not what you hope for, you will wish as if the prelims would never end and prolong the time when you do not have to worry about them but worry about what should you study today.

I apologised for apology's sake. I feel as if I have many things to say but I shall keep my mouth shut.

kaoz...

2006-08-27T13:08:00.000+08:00

I think i practically live in school. From before the sun comes up until the sun goes to the other side of the world. And the cycle repeats itself from monday to saturday. Dont attempt to find me online on weekdays.

Keeping up the momentum.

tots...

2006-08-19T20:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I find that people are extremely prone to change. People's thoughts and actions can change within a minute. Even people close to you can treat you like a close friend one minute and treat you as if you had killed his father the other. I sometimes really wonder if treating people nicely will be appreciated. People would still backstab you and tease you back. I think that having secerts bond people and also divide people. Gossipping behind other people's back is inevitable but is it needed? When people tell me gossips and I tell someone else about it, I would feel a stab of guilt. I couldn't help it.

How do you know when to stop when you are testing someone's patience? When someone explodes? When someone you have always been teasing explodes, what would you do? It is inevitable when someone is in a bad mood and their patience is abit on the low side when you decide to pick on them. Teasing people may be a part of growing up. Have you seen anyone who doesn't? I haven't. I always feel that familar stab of guilt. But it seems to be addictive. A matter of habit I think. Is it my fault? If you don't, one may be seen as an outcast. You can always argue that why care what other people think. Then try living without any friends. Strange that picking on someone would allow you to bond with others. You always need an enemy.

When the entire world seems to be against a person, would you stand with him even thought you may be the only one to do so or would you bury your conscience and stand with the entire world? I feel burdened that I would choose to bury my conscience and stand with the world. After all I would rather be wrong with the rest then be the only one correct. Is this a fault of mine? People thinks that this would be cowardly. I also know this myself. If you were to choose, I am quite sure that you would have the same decision as me. Maybe not.

Personality faults of mine? To follow the crowd even when they are wrong. Is being too easygoing mean that you wouldn't fight back but just let it be? Maybe these are the faults that would one day lead to my failure.

life is ironic...

2006-08-12T12:35:00.000+08:00

life is just simply ironic.

tick tock...

2006-08-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

tick tock tick tock... every second pass means a step closer to the prelims and then the A levels. If you are really optimistic, it means one step closer to freedom. Sometimes i really wonder that i have been thinking too much.

I find my mind wandering whenever i get stuck on a question, and it always wander in the same direction which i find it distracting. When i stayed back in school today, unexpectedly my mind wandered and my thoughts landed somewhere or rather on someone. I pulled myself back and continued on homework. They left and i got stuck on environmental chem. It seems to me that someone presence stuck something and left a reverbrating empty space. Regardless.

Hopefully i can finish my revision on time. Seems like the standard deviation from the timetable is quite abit. And i am not yeelong.

wtf...

2006-07-18T18:10:00.000+08:00

8 more weeks to the prelims. How i wish it was 8 more months. Looking at the state of my studies i barely have enough time to finish my revision. Just enough. If i slacked for a few days i couldnt finish it. Damn. 8 weeks. Can someone give me more time. MORE TIME.

hmmmm...

2006-07-15T12:24:00.000+08:00

ignorance is bliss...

i rather not know anything that you dont feel like telling me...

that was just a simple concern of a fren and not anything else...

its fine with me that you dont reply...

an appraisal...

2006-07-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

yip jingngei... you are a goner. U are dead! U can prepare go jump! Pd block seems like a good jumping spot. Ask you study earlier donwan. Study that time start to regret not starting earlier. Look at the kind of godlike results you are getting. U are a goner man. U think u very pro can study like mad and can actually make it. U overestimate urself i tell u. Or rather u are totally out of ur mind. Dun have other people that kind of genius den dun think u have. People can study a few days before and pass the paper. U think u so pro can also do that. U are out of ur fucking mind. U have just failed 2 papers and u better wake up to your idea. I tell u eh. By hook or by crook, u better pass ur fucking prelims if not... u can forget about going anywhere for the rest of your fucking life.

No one can ever believe the rubbish I am writing. I must be totally out of my mind.

I must be crazy talking to myself.

seeking...

2006-07-03T11:44:00.000+08:00

I have always tried to seek...

-knowledge
-wisdom
-truth
-love
-beauty

But I havent found any yet.

jialat...

2006-06-26T20:02:00.000+08:00

jialat liao my results...

i better pull up my socks and my pants before the a levels...

still got 4 mths...

luckily only common test if a levels den can cry liaoz...

belief...

2006-06-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

"I do not feel obligated to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reasons, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use. - Galileo Galilei

I just realise some people still believes that the earth is flat. Flat like a plane. It is not some tribal people who lives deep in the amazon rainforest or some place in africa. They are people who live in cities,who have been through school, who go to work and live like any of us.

When this guy who went about telling people that the earth is the centre of the universe because the Bible says so and one of his audience stood up and said:" I am overwhelmed but I believe in everything you say because I believe in the inerrancy of the Bible." What a powerful statement.

当你相信的事情超出了理性的范围，而你仍会相信，这就成了信仰。（华特）

The Ghost Of You...

2006-06-11T00:32:00.000+08:00

The Ghost of You by Michael Learns To Rock

Summer's ended and without a trace
Time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thought I walked on through
With my heart in one

Why do I still cry for you
Dying to get close to you Oh baby
Why do I still fear to face
The ghost of you

How I tried to get you of my mind
But you return - all the time
I believed I could just let you go
Like the fool I am, Baby....

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Oh baby why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

I've been trying to release you
to get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
even if I know I should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase, hey...
Baby...

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

Baby, baby why
Anyway I try I'm still reminded
(the ghost of you)
Anywhere I go I keep colliding with
(the ghost of you)
I've given up I just can't fight it
(the ghost of you)

Everytime I look away I see
the ghost of you

Describes what I am thinking just perfectly...

destiny...

2006-06-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

sometimes it is easy to blame everything on destiny...

attribute all the bad things to fate...

it is an easy excuse when u failed ur A levels and say that this is a road i am not fated to take.

when u faced the hardest obstacles its easy to say this is destiny.

sometimes i really find myself saying we are not fated to be together.

how true can that be.

no one knows what the future would bring.

amnesia...

2006-06-03T01:33:00.002+08:00

what time is it now?
1.20am after finish watching 'The Longest Day'. Wanted to go sleep but flipped and flipped in my bed, staring blankly at the ceiling. Tried counting sheep but doesnt seem to work. Is the movie too exciting or what? Whatever the cause, this is one of the rare times that i have amnesia. I must be thinking too much cause my mind only has one answer. Outside seems so quiet and peaceful. No cars no people no whatsoever. Only the streetlamps, the clouds and the silent waters of the reservoir. The reservoir. Brings back some memories. I fear my phone. I fear to give in to temptation to send a msg. I fear the ambiguious feelings and fear that somehow i cannot control my emotions. I fear myself.

I really dont... I want... I dont feel... I just dont know....

I am lost for words bcoz i dunno how to describe the complex feelings i have. I dont even understand myself and my wishes. In a few hours, i would hav to return to rationality. Back to reality. I just hate the aftermath.

win liao lo...

2006-06-02T19:27:00.000+08:00

die.

its nearly one week into the holidays.

what have i done?!

nearly nothing and wreaked up my entire study plan due to my pure laziness.

win liao lo.

opinions...

2006-05-31T18:08:00.000+08:00

不识庐山真面目，只因你在此山中

Everyone has opinions. Our opinions are shaped by our own perceptions, by our upbringing, by our knowledge. Opinions differ. There is only a thin line between objectivity and subjectivity. The world we live in is imperfect, shaped by our own selfish desires. There is no way we can distinguish whose opinions are right and whose are wrong. Black and white doesnt exist. Only shades of grey. As hard as I tried to be objective but somehow opinions get in the way. And some opinions wont change. Then why do we spend time arguing whose opinions are correct when they are both correct and wrong at the same time. Its just a matter of perspective. Obviously you wouldnt look from another perspective as you think that is flawed. The argument goes on and on.

anagrams...

2006-05-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

yip jingngei = Ginny Jig Pie

haha... wat the?

try anagrams at: http://www.wordsmith.org/anagram/

tired...

2006-05-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

Tired...

Pondering...

I think i am drifting further and further away from you...

maybe that is normal...

basket! ball...

2006-05-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

Ouch!

Today a student decides to stay back in school to play basketball. In the end, what is the result of the game? Ans: a sprained wrist. Playing in school seems like a bad choice now. In addition to getting yourself wet and spoiling your shoes, you get unidentified cuts and bruises all over. Today still got 'Friday surprise'. So fantastic. Hopefully is sprained not fractured. You get UFOs also. Unexpected Fall On the ground. All thanks to zhiyao. Joking only.

Wondering...

What defines success in life? Having an excellent education, an outstanding CCA record, a 20 page testimonial, graduated from Ivy League universities? How many people will covert that. However, does it mean that having all these prerequisites would mean that you would be successful. What defines successful? Of course, one can say that a person would have a greater chance of success with these qualifications. But could a person who is totally not as genius as the top students be successful? Ponder... Maybe even a garbage man is successful in one way or another. Btw, I am not biased against 'environmental control officers'.

When you get into university, what courses are you going to take? Something that would cause you to earn a lot and a lot of money or something that you are very interested in? Of course the lucky ones would get to courses that interests them and yet enable them to earn a lot of money. But for me, it seems like courses that I am interested in may not enable me to earn crazy money. Should I give in to monetary gains than interest? Interest cannot feed my entire family. Ponder again... Maybe you will see me next time taking weird weird courses and living in the streets.

untitled...

2006-05-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

your presence keep resonating in my mind...

I tried my hardest to stop thinking...

Or have i...

woohoo...

2006-05-18T18:41:00.000+08:00

Feel so tired. I think exercise really makes you forget all the bad events, sweating makes one look forward to the next challenge. Tiredness makes you forget all the bad dreams you have. I think i would sleep better tonight. I should play more.

I thought i was ok. Until the day you msged me. I dont know if i should feel happy or sad. Feeling ambiguous.

Today i think I am really ok le. Even though my life had lost some of the colours but it is still beautiful.

dots...

2006-05-11T19:29:00.000+08:00

逃避问题是我唯一的选择
闷在家里很想出门
可是当我看到你时
我是多么多么的辛苦
我真的真的知道你不是故意的
所以我只能孤单的锁在家了什么都不想
我知道你希望我快乐
可是我真的真的办不到
===========================
Am i putting unnecessary pressure on you? If i am den i have to apologise and remove myself from the equation.

An equation cannot have more than two people at the same time.

I am the redundant one.

no regrets...

2006-05-07T12:24:00.000+08:00

Maybe letting go may not be such a bad thing after all. I have no regrets about making such a big mistake. At least i know that this is a mistake. Ok. I am stupid lahz. Know that is a mistake still butt my head into the wall. Only end up getting hurt myself. Have i every regretted? The answer is still no. I may act as if there is nothing wrong but you have struck the deepest chord in my heart. Life can never be smooth sailing. Bad news are inevitable. At least i know that whatever more i have done is in vain and i wont waste my time chasing after impossible dreams.

Shattered. I need time to heal.

GE coming...

2006-05-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

tml is the general elections. one of the first elections that is seriously took note of. the last one wasnt as exciting as this one. haha i can vote in the next election provided that there is no walkover, but i doubt so. the west side is always walkover. basket. the opposition should have came here.

hopefully the opposition wins more seats. haha. dont anyhow say things... prison dont have broadband...

sadded...

2006-05-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

what a peculiar feeling i have. when u are feeling damn sad but u still can laugh like crazy and play like mad. am i trying to console myself through playing and talking cock.

my life has lost some of its meaning.

but it still goes on...

undergoing recovery period.

pushing on...

2006-04-30T15:09:00.000+08:00

i always thought i have been through the worse period in my life during sec4. How ironic that something similar will crop up now. I guess i have been much more forgiving than at that time. Wow... does that mean that i have grown up? under combined assault of homework, tests and other problems, i feel like i am crushed. But one should always stand up after a fall and move on with even greater courage. After repeated falls, with many battle scars, would one become someone better? However no matter how much you want to put the past behind you there would always be a black cloud following you. To dispel those dark clouds seem impossible. Or issit that i refuse to forget the memories. Whatever the reason i would still be chained to my memories.

forced by circumstances...

2006-04-28T21:10:00.000+08:00

I did not want to give up.

Now i am forced by circumstances.

I guess i am really immune to the effects.

I expected it.

But am i prepared for it.

I must admit that i am shocked and abit lost.

These feelings are over in minutes.

Its ok.

All I can give is my blessings.

All the best and may both of you last.

ok. back to awp.

signs...

2006-04-24T17:46:00.001+08:00

to wait or not to wait...

I am still waiting for clear signs that my wait is futile...

woohoo... paper planes are so freaking fun. Had a war on monday. Damn shiok.

randomly organised...

2006-04-17T18:13:00.000+08:00

randomly organised... what an oxymoron... long long post.

I really must learn how to console people. When people feel down or something happen, I always dont know how to react. Example: When sophie lost her handphone, I dont know how to console her about the loss. The many times when ostaf had so much trouble, I could only sit there and listen, all input no output. The time when delia cried, I dont know what to tell her or make her feel better. That time zhiting was feeling so damn angry that she wanted to cry, I could only repeat and repeat "juz ignore her". Now my fren is feeling down, I had no words of consolation. What kind of fren am I.

Just how am I suppose the express my feelings about the incidents. I could only listen to what happened/what they are saying but I just dunno how to feedback. I always listen to ostaf talking about his troubles in the past. But I just dont know what to tell him to make him feel better. Similarly with other people, I admit that I only know how to listen and listen and listen somemore. If people simply refuses to tell me, there is nothing that I can do. I dont like to pry the truth out of people. Ostaf once wrote this about me: 虽然你有时没有自己的主见，但我知道你心中有说不出的千言万语。

When someone asks me to console someone, I seriously dont know how to.

Can someone out there teach me the art of consoling someone...

=========================================

I have been very very patient. I really donwan to repeat the mistakes I have made in the past. However, sometimes you make me wonder how important a fren am i to you.

=========================================

Depressed?

Of course I am not.

I am in a dilemma only. I find that I dunno myself more and more everyday. Sound weird. Ok. Should be 越来越不懂我自己. I am getting lost in myself. Losing touch with what I want/what I need to do. I want to study but somehow I would find myself slacking. I want to give up but I would find myself holding on even tighter than before. I am losing touch with my thoughts.

I think I have schizophrenia/bipolar disorder/ depression/all other mental illnesses.

Ok. Back to chemistry.

hmmmz...

2006-04-15T18:52:00.000+08:00

I guess i am never good at expressing my feelings...

I am always waiting for something to happen but it never does...

I guess the word 'miracle' never existed in my world...

It rained damn heavily just now...

It rained as if it will never ever stop...

Wrong place... wrong timing... wrong decisions...

Everything seem so wrong to me...

Running and running and running for something that seemed so far...

Actually maybe right before my very eyes...

Stop.

woohoo... pw...

2006-04-13T19:46:00.000+08:00

pw results are out today...

dunno wat to say...

i dunno if i am paranoid or oversensitive...
u dun trust me...
i am fine with it...
i really dunno wat you are thinking...

running...

2006-04-08T10:21:00.000+08:00

Life's lessons...

Went running this morning alone. Wanted to complete one round of the reservoir in 30 minutes. The 1st 2km or so I ran like crazy completing 500m in 2 minutes. Reached the 3km mark den I started to tire but I continued becoz I believe that I can.

4km. I am really tired. I had already ran for 25min. I was thinking that I ran too fast in the beginning with too much hope. Now I am running out of gas. 5min to complete the next 2km is abit too impossible. But I am determined to do so. Continued running like a man possessed.

4.5km. Thinking what the hell, I pia for an eternity den only 4.5km. I slowed and hestitated. But I am still determined to complete running one round. Slowed down abit to catch my breath.

Arnd 4.8km. I am tiring like crazy. My eyes are blurring and my breathing is ragged. I keep telling myself to go on. Its only another 1.2km or so. I am determined but my body simply cannot take it. I slowed down again. The temptation to stop is getting harder and harder to withstand. I did not want to give up hope of completing.

5km. I gave in to temptation and stopped running. I gave up hope. Time: 38min 40secs. I saw the long long stretch of road ahead. I am determined but I still have to accept that I am really not up to that challenge. All hopes of completing is gone.

6km. Walked for 1km another 0.3km more. I started running again. But it is all too late. Finished time: 55min 20secs

Lesson learnt: no matter how determined I am, no matter what I do, when you have reached a point of total mental exhaustion and physical collapse. I am forced my circumstances to give up all hope of completing the challenge. It is just impossible.

2 months passed... I cannot finish running. Issit time to give up. I am really exhausted.

jack of all trades...

2006-04-04T20:01:00.000+08:00

Jack of all trades but master of none.

How true this holds for me. I realised that I am too curious for my own good. Since young, I read all sorts of books, fiction or non-fiction. As long as I see something interesting, I would go and find out. Nothing wrong with this. But there is something wrong. I keep deviating from the correct path which is the textbook and spend time reading something that have absolutely no connection with my schoolwork. Waste of brainspace. I should have spent more time studying.

All sorts of books I have read make me know somethings about the subject but not in depth. Just like a shallow ocean. I seemed to be distracted by studying irrevelant but interesting (to me) subjects. Haiz. I am really too curious for my own good.

happy?

2006-04-02T14:55:00.000+08:00

doubting...

lost...

sadded...

maybe i am happier letting go...

i accept ur decision... finally...

anyway happy birthday to jinlin n sophie...

haiz...

2006-03-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

Haiz. Holidays ending soon. A very very short break we have to recharge ourselves before finding myself working harder than ever before. Another step closer to the inevitable end during the A levels. Until now I still havent find the motivation to work harder even if I finished most of my homework by now. Homework only, no study.

Nowadays addicted to doing homework at night. So damn peaceful and quiet. Very conducive for studying.

Haiz. Mindef just sent me a letter showing me the consequences of not getting at least a silver for NAPFA. Damn. 4 more weeks of some shitty Physical Training Phrase. Plus no reduction of 2 months of NS. Damn damn. How?

finally...

2006-03-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

Finally I found time to transfer my old entries from my old online diary to blogger. The 9 mths worth of entries gave me a glimpse into my own past, the old sec 4 days. Older than that would have to depend on my memories. Of course I wasn't as faithful as delia in recording all the outings we had. Obviously she is biased towards Glenn lo. Haha. Me and ostaf have a great time laughing at her old 2004 entries which had all the 'HIM's inside.

Walking down the memory lane.

huang cheng 2006...

2006-03-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

so freaking bz for the past few days...

Saturday, had to go to science centre to see if that duck won anything at Singapore Science and Engineering Fair. Haha. Saw that slacker zhengxian there. I doubt anyone ask him about his project. Expecting a Certificate of Participation for him. In the end, that duck also didn't get anything. Me and ostaf was commenting on how lousy that poster look. Haha. Went for dinner and watched a movie. Went home and watched The Pianist. Fantastic show. Abit tragic. Sympathise with the Polish.

Sunday, afternoon met up with jiawei and deyan. Shenglong ps us. Went to play abit of cs and frozen throne. Didn't try dota. I think surely kanna owned like crazy. Went home sleep abit. Woke up with a slight fever and headache. Took some panadol and went out to watch Huang Cheng Ye Yun 2006. Met ostaf and the duck again. Went to some freaking ex place to eat. Broke.

Huang Cheng is quite nice this year. Last year was better in my opinion. All of them quite thought provoking. Shall look forward to next year. Went home pia homework. Went to bed with a headache.

Monday, went to school and took GP common test. Quite shocked at the questions. I just read some of the last nite. It was the 2003 paper. Essay was ok. Didn't managed to finish AQ. Other than that was ok.

haiz... sickening life...

2006-03-07T19:51:00.000+08:00

What a pathetic life I am living now. Wake up. Go school. Study. Go home. Do tutorial. Sleep. And the cycle repeats itself every single day of my life. Wake up. Study. Sleep. Never ending piles of homework and tutorials. Before I managed to finish one, the next one comes.

I must endure.

Drowning myself in homework.

yip jingngei... u r stupid...

2006-03-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

3 times my heart shattered and I managed to put it together again. But this time, can i?

I have lost all hope.

I made a mistake. The mistake of telling her when I haven't know her well enough. I know that it cannot be forced. Maybe I am just not your type. Maybe is I zi bei. Maybe its just me being stupid. I don't know how to put the magnitude of hopes and thoughts buzzing around in my brain into words.

I have got many things to learn in this game. Last year, I told myself never ever trying this rubbish again. But twice I have burnt myself again. How stupid can I be.

Remind myself: Jingngei, you are being totally stupid!

It is not your fault.

thoughts....

2006-03-03T20:31:00.000+08:00

Haiz. I realised that I haven't truely mastered myself. I always think I have the potential to study hard. But somehow I would still be slacking at home and stoning. Somehow my results never fail to show that I am slacking too much. Joel often told me that I also could have become the top student in JJ. BUT in my heart I will always know that it is not possible if I continue to studying like that for a hundred years. I always doubt myself and in the end regreted my decision.

I noticed that many people just absorb information given by books, notes, lectures etc without questioning if it is really true or not. They would usually think that "Aiya... if its wrong den will teach in school mehz... s'pore govt sure wont allow one wat" or something like that. But sometimes questioning something that had undisputable proof of existance is just waste of time.

Now I question myself. Is my decision to tell you correct? Will I live to regret it? I regretted so many things I did but somehow I never learn from my mistakes. Even if I did, something unexpected will just pop out and I would make a wrong move.

mistakes...

2006-02-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

Life is full of mistakes. Big ones and small ones. But you learn from them and not make them again.

I sometimes think that I made too much of them.

Some secerts are meant for yourself to know, kept in some secert compartment in your heart and forgotten, occasionally taken out for your private perusal. I made a mistake by saying too much.

messy messy life...

2006-02-18T18:37:00.000+08:00

Parental Guidence required.

I am boiling hot. Fucking boiling hot. If someone is late for 1 fucking hour, would you be pissed? I would not if I had known. I am a very patient person. I can wait and wait and wait. But my patience wears thinner and thinner and thinner. I don't even know when you will reach. And I am just waiting and waiting and waiting like a stupid fool. Wandered around popular like a total idiot.

Yeah, I know that it is yours and I am obliged to give it to you. But you can't make me wait for you for 1 fucking hour. Fuck! Ok. Its my fault. I should have given it back during numerous outings we had. I went to JE in the fucking rain and waited for you to turn up. Yeah. I know you are going to be late. I know you would be very very late. But I am also wet and hungry and waiting to go home also. You are not the only one. Yes. You apologize. But it doesn't help in making me go home earlier and not getting 'tio gan' for going home late.

Ok. It's still my fucking fault.

My fucking life is in a fucking mess. Fuck! I don't know how to untangle it. Its getting messier and messier by the minute.

Maybe you think that telling her best friend is ok. But I think its a mistake. Using people's secerts to further your own agenda, maybe you think its ok. But I think its not. I don't blame you.

Maybe I am mistaken.

Seek peace in homework.

road run...

2006-02-17T17:26:00.000+08:00

I had my road run today. I never felt so impressed with myself before. Since sec 1, the cross country run is always a gruelling, disgustingly long, never ending journey. I am always tempted to stop and rest and walk. Never once i managed to complete the 4.8km run without stopping.

Now, I know what is the reason that keeps you from running, its not your stamina or your strength, its your mindset that is the most important. It keeps you running when you are failing, it keeps ur legs moving when you feel like stopping, it encourages you to endure and persevere. Perseverance and endurance is what every run teaches you.

It is very hard to resist the temptation to stop when the others around you stops. It takes much willpower to continue running. It is also the willpower that gives you strength to continue. I guess that life is a long long journey but I will never stop until I reached the end. Maybe pausing for a breath is still acceptable.

~~I feel so happy today... maybe this is a good start... I never thought that I will have this chance...~~

creative?

2006-02-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

haha... i found this online...

Google apparently started a hiring campaign by posting this advert { FIRST 10 DIGIT PRIME IN CONSECUTIVE DIGITS OF E }.COM on a highway in US. This would lead to a website which contains more clues and eventually reached the Google site for recruitment of engineers.

I find this a creative gimmick to attract top brains to solve the problem and making sure those people would find their way to the site.

Here's the pic:

For those who want to know the ans: 7427466391 (highlight to see ans)

Luv is in the air...

2006-02-14T17:21:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!
May all of you people out there find love...

dots...

2006-02-11T15:00:00.000+08:00

words can break people...

random...

2006-02-07T17:12:00.000+08:00

I wanted to blog yesterday but I was too ~~lazy~~ busy so blog because of the never ending piles of homework. I think I am getting more and more no life every passing day.

Yesterday watched a video which 1 person said that having a religion gives you a purpose in life. Hmmmz. Somehow I beg to differ. Disclaimer: These are my own personal thoughts and does not attempt to convert people to atheism. I think somehow even though I have a religion, I still can't find my purpose in life which many religions claim that they can supply it. Maybe I still do have a long way to go. At which part of my life do I find a purpose? Maybe my life doesn't have one. Maybe I am too young to appreciate life? Maybe maybe maybe.

It seems to me that sciences are not as good as I think it is. From young, I always would like to pursue a career in science or mathematics. But at this time, it doesn't seem like a good idea to me. When I go into university, faculty of science does not appeal to me now. I used to think that doing chemistry in university would be quite interesting. Somehow, I think that its not my cup of tea now. I used to convince myself that I only need to have an interest in Physics to take Physics which its not much practical use. Maybe as a lecturer or researcher. Somehow, it doesn't appeal to me now.

I feel like a ship lost in a sea with no sense of direction which is just drifting with the currents.

haiz... so suay lahz...

2006-02-05T12:17:00.000+08:00

long time nvr update le... abit buzy these days... or rather i am lazy... influenced by zhiyao... haha joking only lahz.

Had a very suay day on friday. Afternoon basketball kanna suaned bcoz I was too close to jinlin. Ok. Its my fault. Then accidentally hit the ball and it hit liting on her head. My fault again. Then I was locked out of my house becoz i forgot to bring my keys. Haiz. My mum went out and my sis came home in the afternoon and then went out again. By the time, I reached home all gone out le. Damn.

Reminded me of jiawei who was locked within his own house because he dont have the freaking house keys. Very ridiculous lahz. Ps me.

haha...

2006-01-29T08:57:00.000+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year!

May all your wishes come true in the year of the dog!

haiz... sick...

2006-01-10T10:38:00.000+08:00

Haiz... when was the last time I am sick? A few years ago maybe. Now, I am sick again. Running nose, sore throat, cough. Not very serious, most probably cause by me eating too much fries. Too heaty le. Maybe infected by yaojun. Haiz. Whatever the cause, I am still sick.

happy birthday to me!

2006-01-08T22:58:00.000+08:00

Hmmmz... it been a long time since i blogged. Getting busy with homework and stuff, trying to get myself into the mood of revising my work with a chemistry test upcoming next week. Most of the stuff I had learnt went down the drain after the holidays. Haiz.

Birthday was fun. Someone said that going zoo only costs 7 bucks and did'nt do her/it research well before duping us there. Result: we can't get in. After that, a very-forgetful-and-left-the-birthday-present-at-lot-1 me had to get off the bus two stops from the interchange and ran back to lot 1 to get it. I think that the driver obviously thinks that we are crazy. Hopefully, its not lost and found by the cleaner. After which we proceeded to PS to get someone's phone repaired (yes, the same someone) as she/it cannot receive messages at home but can only do so from the corridor. Obviously, its the problem with the house. Interestingly, we had to take each of the transports twice. 1st is 927 to the zoo. 2nd is the 190 from CCK. 3rd is the NE line to harbourfront. Shan't elaborate.

In other countries, people sing "Let it snow! Let it snow! Let it snow..." but we sing "Let it rain! Let it rain! Let it rain..." It's being raining non-stop (non-stop for goodness' sake) for god knows how many days. Ok. It's exaggerated. Only 1 or 2 days. Visibility is at most 500m. Moonsoon season is late this year. Normally this kind of weather usually happens during the 1st week of school. That was what I remembered for the last few years.

Time is what I have in short now. Basically, what I would like to wish for my birthday next year would be TIME not the TIME magazine but T-I-M-E. I need more time and more time and more time. One can never get enough of it. How I wish there would be time for me to do things I want and at the same time study well. Is it possible? Ok. I must be dreaming.

Those who want to give me nice nice pressies for my birthday next year, fedex TIME to me and tie it securely because according to Jinlin, TIME has wings and I don't want it to fly away before it reaches me.

1st day of sch...

2006-01-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

wow... 1st day of school le eh. J2 le eh. A lvl le eh. Haiz... why all these things come together?!

I forsee that I would be really really really busy this year with many tests, many exams, lots and lots and lots of homework. No time to slack, to laze around and to just stone like I did during hols. Its time to cheong and pia. It would be a tough year ahead and hopefully I will pull through in 1 piece.

Haiz...

we wish u a merry christmas and a happy new yr!

2006-01-01T02:39:00.000+08:00

I believe in destiny...

I believe that some people are destined to play a large part in your life...

However i think that u are not that 'some people'

and i hope u are not...

new yr resolutions...

2005-12-31T10:58:00.000+08:00

2day is last day of 2005 le... another yr goes into the past and into my memories... so i am going to rite my new year resolutions...

1. I promise that i wont commit suicide nxt yr no matter how hard it gets.
2. I promise that i would ~~slack more~~ work harder so that i can get into uni.
3. I promise that i wont procrastinate so much next yr.
4. I promise that i will put more effort into my ~~relationships~~ studies.
5. I promise that... like no more le lehz... mayb i rite 1 more during cny...

Gongxi facai!

christmas...

2005-12-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas!

Today is Christmas Eve which means that another year is about to pass... another yr going into my memories... another yr older... feel old lehz... soon comes cny... and more hongbaos...

Sad... no one give pressie to me... lonely christmas...